Hello! You’ve not seen my face for a few days so here you go…its not changed sadly.
I’m trying my best (and failing miserably) to be positive but the smile that was genuine at the beginning of last week has slowly become more & more fake as the days have gone on & there was a point a couple of days ago that i came close to cutting (i didn’t). Everything is beginning to become real & shit again & i’m not 100% sure how (or if) i’m going to be able to deal with the things that are going to be happening within the next few weeks/months. Hopefully i’ll be fine but right now even thinking about it is making me feel horrid. I will continue to be as positive as i can for as long as i can but its getting harder as each day passes.
Life goes on, as they say.
I’m sure i’ll be happier in a weeks time when i have things to look forward to :)